Such a heart disease.

Well.. 

I don't really know what went wrong but.. I ain't okay.

Love grows, love cure but scars leave.

This is like what the heck. This happen everyday.

The same way though. But deeply through my heart, I know I'm in love.

Mans are just the older boys. Boys promised, boys lied too.

I'm just afraid it will happen all over again. I'm not ready yet for facing heart breaking.

God, for your sake I am afraid. 

Exhausting Week.

I AM SO FURIOUS WITH THE EXAMS.
I never sleep well within this week. The hell, it all caused by exams. Well the exam is not over yet. Hopefully my scores are above the standard achievements.
But I feel reliefed, math has done but, physics!
I hope I would have some miracle and to my friends too. HAHAHA once again. Exhausting week.

God bless you!

Dertain.

Oh dear my tummy lovable prince,

Thanks for making my day, I enjoyed today too much and yes, today will never be forgotten!
Its been so long that I've never see you. But I think I fall for you lately :D
Gosh I hope he is the right one today and forever.

Love, Sheila.

Life is such a dick.

He used me. He played me. Just to get his happiness? What kind of bastard are you, steven? Such a childish one. You are sacrificing for her without thinking about any of my feelings, aren't you?
Well you're such a bastard.
I am officially going to be brave enough to plan some vengeances.
Boy, karma does exist!
Jangan mau enaknya aja ya. Lo pasti dapet balesan yang lebihbihbih.

He is a bastard. Always.

Participants:
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Hasnɑ, Steven Fariz 

Messages:
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Steven Fariz : Aku pgn amntanku balik dgn usaha bkin dia cmburu krn dia g perna suka sm Sheila...
Steven Fariz : 3-|
Steven Fariz : Dgn nyakitin sheila
Steven Fariz : Sadis ya..
Steven Fariz : Hmmhh..
Steven Fariz : *mantanku
Hasnɑ: Kok gitu kaaa?
Hasnɑ: Jadi sheila kk sakitin?
Steven Fariz : Iya sperti yg km tau
Steven Fariz : 3-|
Hasnɑ: Yaaah kasian dong sheilaa
Steven Fariz : Iya Hasna...
Hasnɑ: Skrg gimana dong?
Steven Fariz : 3-|
Steven Fariz : Ini yg trakhir
Steven Fariz : Ak gk akan nyangkutin sheila
Steven Fariz : Ill use my own might to get her
Hasnɑ: Yaudah
Hasnɑ: Jadi kk gk bakalan ama sheila lagi?
Steven Fariz : Aku ud hilang dr hadapan Sheila
Hasnɑ: Yaaaah
Hasnɑ: Kasian sheila dong
Steven Fariz : Gk akan
Hasnɑ: Kok gitu?
Steven Fariz : Dia bahagia tanpaku
Steven Fariz : :D
Hasnɑ: Gk juga kali kaa
Hasnɑ: Kk udh blg ama sheilanya?
Steven Fariz : Aku jg ngga bahagia sm dia klo dia bgtu trus
Steven Fariz : Hmm
Hasnɑ: Begitu gmn?
Steven Fariz : Ngga blg klo bgini
Steven Fariz : Cm hilang gt aja
Hasnɑ: Blg ajaaa
Steven Fariz : Biar
Steven Fariz : Ngga usah deh Hasna
Steven Fariz : :D
Hasnɑ: Kenapa gk usaaah?
Steven Fariz : Km sampaikan maafku ya sm dia

Game. This is between The Coach and The Player.

Yeah of course I'm the coach. Muahahahha.
Look like the game over.
Me as the coach was super upset. The player didn't play so good.

Ah, cowoooo. Dulu lo yang gue sayang. Segala segalanya buat lo, tentang lo. You've stole my heart. Dulu juga lo yang ngasih harapan. Php super bastard lo. Tukang boong super fatal dan gak tau diri. Yaah, bad luck aja kali ya. Ga di ambil pusing sih. Ambil aja sisi positifnya, pelajarannya. I've grown up and you'll once miss me and the extremely childish me. Those things will guide me to be better and ravish next time.

For you, My Lovely Charming Player.

How I feel the love feeling now.

This one. Yeah.
This is miserable one but I couldn't pretend any better.
Ich bin verliebt.
I'm desperately, madly, passionately in love.
I am really hoping that last accident, oh no not accident actually. Last fucking choice was the last one. 
Please, boy, no more betray. I've felt that like thousand times. 
I Love You. 

It's been a while..

Yes. It's been a while since you left me that day.

Even though this is hard but I think I am falling for another guy.

He is super adorable. 

BUT EVERY PLANS OF MINE WERE RUINED!

 

dreizwölfelf{}

You're cute, drei.
You're handsome, drei.
You're cool, drei.
You're attractive, drei.
You're what you are, drei.
You're adorable, drei.
You're perfect, drei.
You're greedy, drei.
You're great, drei.
You're smart, drei.
You're lovely, drei.
You're lovable, drei.
You're hot, drei.
You're nice, drei.
You're no agressive, drei.

Drei, I am in love with you.
Ich bin verliebt, Ich liebe dich, Ich will dich, Ich brauche dich.
Ohne idch kannich nicht leben.
♥

Non-attractive.

Susah, susah banget di lupain. Sekalinya diinget, sedih, nangis. Capek gini terus. Kalo usaha ga inget, pasti keinget terus. Di semua sudut pasti ada kenangan. Perasaan lo sama gak sih? 
Ngertiin dong seberapa senengnya waktu lo janjiin gue. Lo harus tau seberapa senengnya waktu lo bilang gue yang terakhir. Lo inget gak semuanya?
Yang lo inget cuma cewe itu, cewe itu, cewe itu. Nyesek ya.
Ldr, susah. Harus komitmen. Mana komitmen? Lo bilang komitmen? Bisa kalo komitmen? Mana? Buktinya mana? 
Bukti harus pelan-pelan? Pelan-pelan gue sabar sabarin kalo gaada hasilnya gimana? Seneng lo? 
Gampang ya bohongin orang. Gue tau lo jauh, bisa seenaknya. Gue cewe kecil juga punya perasaan. 
Jelek di luar & jelek di dalem lo. 
Hmm, sampe sekarang gue masih terpukul banget. 


Have a nice Saturday!

Stay Still.

Well, its been 2 days since I last contacting him. I really miss him as well. Yeah, I can't lie indeed. I am obviously still in love with you. You. Only you.
But..
Promises, lies, sayings, convinces, everything bring me down.
Yes, but I am trying to move on.
I know what should I do :)
I am caught for falling in love, with my ex!
Is that necessary? Perhaps. Let's just pass it anyways!

Torture.

Well, this is probably untrustable but all I can say is, this is him. One mouth fulfilled by thousands bullshits, promises, everything that are convincing me to believe and trust him all over again. 
Well, in the first place, I've knew that it'll happen soon, again, this kinda bad luck happened all the time when I'm with him. He is terrible, terrifiying. I mean, I'm not a toy, how come he was so mean playing me and took easy everything? I feel bad for letting myself down anyway. 
Such a greedy man. 18 years old man with such a 13 years old building and bad convictions. So its a great thing to be learned by the way. I was giving him last chance but I see there's no changes although he promised me not to do anything bad. Well I hope you're me, Ven. 


Have a nice Sunday everyone!

The Love Feelings.

He confuse me. I don't know what to do. What to choose. What the fuck is wrong with us? I feel like, yeah. Lied on. I cried like every night, every day. You don't know as well. I'm stuck, always stuck. My feelings doesn't goes well. Stuck, fuck. Leaving him? Is that a right choice? But he let me, he really do. What's this tears really work for?
I'm tired though, being like this.
Promised everyday. Have no convictions. No prove as well.
Where's the side that you said you truly does love me?
Well you're 18 now. You probably should've known how to treat girl, goodly.
For God's sake I don't know what to do. It seems like whatever I did, do is wrong. Always. No one of them's right.
Well, what always appear in my mind are you cheating, you lying, you betraying, you playing.
All, all bad things appear on my mind. When I asked you, you certainly confused what to answer. You changed lately.
Bad changes though.
Said you never let go, but you never show me how to not really let go.
Long distance relationship is hard.

das gefühl

Ich fühle mich wie zufällig heute. Ich liebe ihn, immer tun. Aber .. Können Sie sehen, dass ich eifersüchtig jedes Mal bekomme ich Ihnen sie zu sehen? Sie jemals daran gedacht, dass du mich verletzt aller Zeiten. Mir versprochen? mich angelogen? was zum Teufel ist mit dir passiert? 

Sondern vor allem
Ich liebe dich.

Etwas.

 

Totally Random.

Sweet but....

 Feels like, want to feel this way once in a lifetime-_- HAHAHA

End of innocence.

The benefits of Head And Shoulder
Crap, this is LOL.

More Junks, More Fat.

In Case of getting hungry

Eat those.

 KFC

 COCA COLA

 CupCakes

LOL, this is the case result of eating Junk foods!

Lazy Saturday.

Well, nothing to do at home instead of posting something useless here. Oh hey let's talk about love.
Ehm, who don't know the most important thing of life? yeah that's love.
We are blind enough to love someone. Do you ever think when your friends said that him/her is ugly but then you just go disagree right? HAHA most of people did.

So let's be spesific. Love hurts? Indeed. What do you think the impact is?
Infinity hmm.
It causes so many impacts with your life.
Do you know, jealousy? yeah that is one of the problem.
Everyone does. Everyone have. Everyone ever. Everyone ever did.
So, what do you feel when the one you love, love someone else?
Whad do you feel when you're being chated? Heart breaks? Hahahaha. Then you just do some reckless things that may harm your self but then you just say 'no its okay, I prefer to hurt my body than my heart'
Only because that one useless guy/girl?

So this post is based on my experiences. They give me lessons to learn. Have a nice Saturday!

Lotso Cakes.

CRAVING TOO MUCH FOR THIS.

OH HELL.

Amour.

WE ARE SUPER CUTE!

 Kanya, Nissa, Tiara, Me :9

Look at Haikal-_- 

 Ever look at your PE teacher once.

Green House!

Express not Impress.

Americana~ Lalala~

Well seeing this like WTF?

See stuffs that driving me crazy.
Oh seeing this like craps-_-