How I feel the love feeling now.

This one. Yeah.
This is miserable one but I couldn't pretend any better.
Ich bin verliebt.
I'm desperately, madly, passionately in love.
I am really hoping that last accident, oh no not accident actually. Last fucking choice was the last one. 
Please, boy, no more betray. I've felt that like thousand times. 
I Love You. 

It's been a while..

Yes. It's been a while since you left me that day.

Even though this is hard but I think I am falling for another guy.

He is super adorable. 

BUT EVERY PLANS OF MINE WERE RUINED!

 

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You're cute, drei.
You're handsome, drei.
You're cool, drei.
You're attractive, drei.
You're what you are, drei.
You're adorable, drei.
You're perfect, drei.
You're greedy, drei.
You're great, drei.
You're smart, drei.
You're lovely, drei.
You're lovable, drei.
You're hot, drei.
You're nice, drei.
You're no agressive, drei.

Drei, I am in love with you.
Ich bin verliebt, Ich liebe dich, Ich will dich, Ich brauche dich.
Ohne idch kannich nicht leben.
♥

Non-attractive.

Susah, susah banget di lupain. Sekalinya diinget, sedih, nangis. Capek gini terus. Kalo usaha ga inget, pasti keinget terus. Di semua sudut pasti ada kenangan. Perasaan lo sama gak sih? 
Ngertiin dong seberapa senengnya waktu lo janjiin gue. Lo harus tau seberapa senengnya waktu lo bilang gue yang terakhir. Lo inget gak semuanya?
Yang lo inget cuma cewe itu, cewe itu, cewe itu. Nyesek ya.
Ldr, susah. Harus komitmen. Mana komitmen? Lo bilang komitmen? Bisa kalo komitmen? Mana? Buktinya mana? 
Bukti harus pelan-pelan? Pelan-pelan gue sabar sabarin kalo gaada hasilnya gimana? Seneng lo? 
Gampang ya bohongin orang. Gue tau lo jauh, bisa seenaknya. Gue cewe kecil juga punya perasaan. 
Jelek di luar & jelek di dalem lo. 
Hmm, sampe sekarang gue masih terpukul banget. 


Have a nice Saturday!

Stay Still.

Well, its been 2 days since I last contacting him. I really miss him as well. Yeah, I can't lie indeed. I am obviously still in love with you. You. Only you.
But..
Promises, lies, sayings, convinces, everything bring me down.
Yes, but I am trying to move on.
I know what should I do :)
I am caught for falling in love, with my ex!
Is that necessary? Perhaps. Let's just pass it anyways!

Torture.

Well, this is probably untrustable but all I can say is, this is him. One mouth fulfilled by thousands bullshits, promises, everything that are convincing me to believe and trust him all over again. 
Well, in the first place, I've knew that it'll happen soon, again, this kinda bad luck happened all the time when I'm with him. He is terrible, terrifiying. I mean, I'm not a toy, how come he was so mean playing me and took easy everything? I feel bad for letting myself down anyway. 
Such a greedy man. 18 years old man with such a 13 years old building and bad convictions. So its a great thing to be learned by the way. I was giving him last chance but I see there's no changes although he promised me not to do anything bad. Well I hope you're me, Ven. 


Have a nice Sunday everyone!

The Love Feelings.

He confuse me. I don't know what to do. What to choose. What the fuck is wrong with us? I feel like, yeah. Lied on. I cried like every night, every day. You don't know as well. I'm stuck, always stuck. My feelings doesn't goes well. Stuck, fuck. Leaving him? Is that a right choice? But he let me, he really do. What's this tears really work for?
I'm tired though, being like this.
Promised everyday. Have no convictions. No prove as well.
Where's the side that you said you truly does love me?
Well you're 18 now. You probably should've known how to treat girl, goodly.
For God's sake I don't know what to do. It seems like whatever I did, do is wrong. Always. No one of them's right.
Well, what always appear in my mind are you cheating, you lying, you betraying, you playing.
All, all bad things appear on my mind. When I asked you, you certainly confused what to answer. You changed lately.
Bad changes though.
Said you never let go, but you never show me how to not really let go.
Long distance relationship is hard.